M Y J O U R N E Y
Rising through fear & codependency into a life of soulful purpose and love
In 2015 I experienced two unexplained seizures that threw me into an absolute world of fear. I felt out of control in my own body, and I completely shut down and isolated to prevent further seizures. With no known cause, or certainty around how to prevent them, I was no longer able to drive, swim, have a bath, drink alcohol, workout, stay up late, overexert myself or go anywhere alone. For 12 months I put my life on hold and spiraled into depression and anxiety.
One morning while listening to a self-development podcast on my now daily walk to the bus station, I had the key awareness that there are two choices in life - love or fear. Living in fear of another seizure wasn’t protecting me at all, in fact it was keeping me from really living at all. I was simply existing. So, I started committing to choosing love and that is where I found creativity and spirituality. I began to write and paint by blending colours by the way it felt and I found it to be incredibly therapeutic. I loved creating and it was through writing and abstract painting that I found a real sense of freedom and joy again. It wasn’t until much later in May 2018 when I held my first solo art exhibition that I looked back at all my paintings and realised that through painting I had in fact been connecting with my soul and had been healing the fragmented parts of myself through creative expression. I was connecting to my truth and my soul through creativity.
Creativity became part of my spiritual practice.
8 months later I went on an incredible two week retreat to India where I purged fear amongst sacred sisters and made a commitment to let go of what was no longer serving me & to really step into my soul purpose. On my return I began connecting and exploring spirituality through completing my Usui Reiki 1, 2, and Master training in Australia. Becoming attuned to Reiki set me on a new path and consequently my life was forever changed. As a result in the dramatic shifts that occurred within me, I began unravelling, releasing and healing from codependency and let go of a 12 year relationship. Through this process I continued to paint and I called upon a community of soul sisters to support me through this process. After a lot of deep work on myself, later that year I invited in a new healthy loving relationship (we’ve now been together for 7 amazing years) and I returned to India, this time taking 5 women with me and cohosting a women’s retreat - “Let go & Let India.”
In 2018 I held my first solo art exhibition and talk sharing my story and transformation demonstrated through the story of each of my paintings. It was the most liberating and joyful (and scary) thing that I have ever created. I continue to walk the creative lightworker path by birthing my soul led visions into the world and that isn’t always an easy ride!
In 2019 I felt the call to leave Australia to return to my homeland (New Zealand), to let go of full-time work and to deeply commit to living my purpose in each walking moment. Little did I know, I would spend part of that journey profoundly walking my amazing Dad home through a terminal diagnosis of Motor Neurons disease. After his transition, I knew the reason I was called home to New Zealand was now complete. It was now time to return to my soul home - Perth Australia, to continue the evolution and next chapter of my soul mission in supporting other lightworkers to rise.
I never found the cause of those original seizures and to this day have not had any more. I consider those seizures to be the rockbottom I needed to reconnect to myself, my hidden gifts and to step into helping others. Now my mission is to liberate you from the codependent patterns that keep you disempowered and disconnected from the love and sense of purpose you yearn for. I’m here to guide you in connecting you to your own creative/spiritual gifts/expression so you can create a life you love, cultivate loving healthy relationships and step into your own soul mission and purpose.
If you resonate with my story and are going through a similar experience of unravelling in your life, it is my divine purpose to support and guide you along your transformation through reiki, my one-on-one spiritual life coaching and group programs. Click below to learn how I can support you on your journey of awakening to who you really are.
